Stunned

I've been stunned by 4 events on saturday. But before tt, it's been a long time since I've last posted... Been playing Heroes of Might & Magic V lately. Just recently completed campaign 3 mission 1... It's very hard now and really requires a lot of strategy to win the game... Yup I've been spending time at home on Heroes V!

Before the 4 events, I watched the World Cup opening match on fri night! Ok fine the first half only cos after tt I've got to work! I'm an owl! Saw Germany 2-1 up! (eventually it was 4-2) Actually the point was they played the German National Anthem which actually brought back memories of '04! Back then I heard it 5 times and fell in love with it! Totally rocks man! Good old Bach! What a masterpiece! Respect man! K now for the first event. What else? Nightmare la cos not enough slp... Twice in a row! Couldn't exactly remember what happened but I was quite disturbed! It actually woke me up earlier! Then I couldn't slp again, was tossing and turning! Grrr! Next Ian called. Oh no! My ex classmate's mom passed away... Didn't expect it man! I was like woah... I won't say who out of privacy. I would be really devastated if I were in his shoes. Sorry dude. My condolences for tt heart wrenching loss...

Thirdly, I was quite stunned and surprised when my mom called to tell me the good news! Yup I am soooo happy and excited! After all tt hard work and the failures, I finally got a consolation! It's not much but it's better than nothing! I really thought I wouldn't get it! The interview was totally scrappy from my point of view but I guessed I must have impressed some of the interviewers with my insights... Thank the Lord for his grace and mercy! Haha I am banished from Tk no more... I shall go back with no pressure now! After 2.5 yrs, the pressure is finally off my shoulders.

However, a sad point to note which is the fourth event... I feel so culpable for making someone close to me cry... I can't believe it... I shouldn't have said stupid qn... Me and my big mouth... Anyway the damage has been done, I take full responsibility for my actions... Now only 1 chi term can describe how I am feeling now... Mao dun... On one hand, I feel devastated (actually no words can describe it, this is the closest), I almost cried too... I think it's only a matter of time before tt happens... But I will control it for now... On the other hand I feel comforted that I got a consolation for all my hard work last yr... I really don't know man... I am stunned!