Damage Control Or A Last Shot At The Impossible?

How ironic... Damage Control in the face of failure... Cutting losses... Pulling back... Retreating... How disgraceful... How unlike myself... A coward's tactic I must add... Unlike the "let's do this" of Gears of War! Damn how I wish I was Marcus Fenix... Or maybe Master Chief... So gung ho... Even in the face of defeat... But no... I'm a pessimist... Already retreating rather than trying harder as time is running out...

With no intel, I'm going into 07 blind & deaf... Yup I think it'll just be a grey veil of melancholy... Not completely blind but nonetheless still not seeing the clear picture... Just like the morning fog... Damn I hate this feeling... It makes me feel lost... Of course retreating is the most rational idea... I got my com... My XBox... I got hell loads of games to complete... I got hell loads of stuff to read... These things need time and time is what I have... Yet... Why are u still yearning for an illusion? U ain't David Blaine...

Sometimes I wonder why I actually give a damn... My brain says walk away & rebuild but my heart says wait and see... Hahaha being a slacker, obviously waiting & seeing is more gratifying than rebuilding... But I fear that the latter might be more convoluted than the former... There's definately enough tension to spark off 07... How reassuring...

Can't wait for dec for obvious reasons... I'll be having an informal "school holiday!!!" Hahaha yep I'll be damn free to formulate a plan to take over the world...

Speaking of world... Welcome to the real world Calvin... A world which is screwed up... A world where mistakes are fatal, where ppl with malicious influences "work" with you, where there are backstabbers everywhere, where ppl will do everything and anything to gain the upper hand, where loyalties shift as often as the sand in the Sahara, where there is inequality, where the fittest survive, where opposites happen 99% of the time and countless more that I can't remember...

I think I'm going to fail for the last time this yr... That rebuilding is the agenda for 07... But... I might just love the real world... I'll wait and see!