Boulevard of Broken Dreams

My com is still giving me probs! I got lots of stuff to blog but my com is really messed up… Anyways, National Day is over… Good riddance man! Finally we’ll get reinforcements… I’m alr dying from 13 hrs of work… Been spending national day trying to fix this screwed up machine… In retrospect, I remember exactly 1 yr ago I was studying transition metals during NDP… Ha now I’m in Army n fixing my com… Can’t believe it’s 1 yr alr… Especially shocked to make it relatively unscathed through Army so far… Will elaborate later… Ahhh I wonder what I’ll be doing next yr during NDP… Hopefully driving my Nissan March ard!

Opps ok I spent the afternoon of ND going to find my future dream car… Hey I decided to move on from NFS man… Now it’s getting real n personal! No more drifting n speeding! It’s now safety first… Thanks to James for being my exceptional car guide… I gotta hand it to u man… Giving me all the facts for every car that we stepped into… U are the real car expert! I’m just blown away… Haha now I just gotta pass basic on Fri n then start the practical! I think I’ll set a target date on march! Haha how apt!

Oh yes I finally got a “long weekend”! Yeah got sat sun n mon off cos of my hard work… Yep I went out with Ian, James n Kia Jun to the lagoon to eat! Wooo! I was like so happy to see them again n talk about life! We went on those long walks on East coast to Marine Parade cos Ian gotta do smt… Hahaha then I accompanied James on his personal mission too… Interesting man…

Hmm mon I actually wanted to blog but my com was down the WHOLE DAY!!! Sucks man! I had no choice but to play Fable on the Xbox… Lucky me… Anyway it was a nice 3 day break cos I was totally tired… I had to recharge my batt… Tiring man!

Man my arms are still hurting! On thurs we had training which was totally pumpings… Yup I can’t be bothered with them all right! Sucks la! Why can’t we all just train pull ups & leave push ups alone… Hiaz! Anything but push ups man! Anyway… Whatever la… It’s all in God’s hands!

I’m really blessed… Really! I mean it’s totally shocking for me these past months… Really emotional + mental rollercoaster… Anyway I won’t wanna elaborate… Some of it is sensitive; others are personal to me… Despite all my sins and in my darkest hour, God was still there for me… I just didn’t see it…

Nonetheless… it’s gonna be a loooong dark path ahead of me… I walk a lonely road on the boulevard of broken dreams. I’m holding on to hope but I suspect it’ll all be in vain… Tt darkness will consume me… Falling to the Dark Side etc etc… I fear the door is shut forever and it’s never gonna open again… Oh what have I done this time? I guess I have only myself to blame… I really want to scream, cry, unleash my wrath etc… Only my shadow will walk beside me… I really wonder if she will find me? Till then I walk alone…