Faith

It's amazing how one's life can change in a short time spand of 1 week... Last week I was so naïve, so happy go lucky... Then it suddenly hit me... All the time Dad was spending at home, why he didn't need to go to work... There ain't no more work... Ah U___________, the no. 1 enermy of any country... The scourge of mankind... The result of "more efficient workers". Ah... The sadness... The anger... So many thoughts, some rash, some radical, some sane despite my shocked mind... Much more questions, mostly unanwsered... Dreams shattered... A lot of other effects... But life has to go on... I don't wanna talk abt it! Time to pick up the pieces... I pray to God to grant Mom the strength to support the family, for my dad to pass his interview and for me to focus on my upcoming events and not let anger cloud my judgements and also to be strong. Faith is my ally! I want to take this opportunity to apolgise to my friends who felt the wrath of my anger, my cynical views and my sarcastic remarks... I hope u will understand tt I don't mean to be such a jerk... AND I am seriously ok.... I am so trying my best to be strong, to be committed, to be the old me but I concede tt this turn of event would change me inevitably... I just hope we'll be all right... For now it's back to SYF!!! I will not let this affect my performance...

We went to visit good old SCH on Thursday... Haha tt place just brings back so many memories... But then we will be competing there so it won't be like the last time... Nelson said we were damn loud despite efforts to make the hall dry... I guess SSCC has the ultimate driest acoustics ever built by mankind... So... It was ok I guess... A bit softer and we'll be all right... We're just tired... I was like so dead when I reached home at 12am...

Today we came to school to have sectionals... Then off to SLCC to perform to the other JC choirs... Ya there was MJ, AJ, TP and us... AJC was good... We were like so scared... To make things worst, our Pamugun was rushing... OMG we were so demoralised (at least I was)... Luckily Lily is improving! Even Nelson forgot the name of the song... After lunch was more practice... Sunset... Haha we sang it in rows... Luckily my row didn't get sent out... It was the only row who wasn't sent out cos we had 4 perfect pitch ppl... Ya I won't elaborate... The back row had all the pros... Man I hope I wasn't a liability:). We did some SOV songs... Wha I almost forgot some of the chinese words man... Hiaz... Then we finished with our SYF songs... Then we had small group practice but my group was ok... Man... Everyday must wake up at 530am. I need to be in school by 7 to practice till 8am!!! Haha it's called morning practice... I think there's not enough time... 1 hour... 1/2 to warm up... then 10 min for each song? Hmmm... Well we'll see... I am so gonna miss singing the National Anthem... Then again it is a lousy warm up song... Ai ya highest note is D only... Damn slack lor... Someone tell me why they transposed it a semitone down... Arghhh!!! Lily's the best lor... A in the morning... And in Germany I had to reach a G... Siao la... Sure CMI...